I'm starting to get confused by myself. Confused about my own feelings.. It's confirmed that the feeling is there; but there's this side of me which don't think its possible... Just recently i would have sudden urges to confess like an idiot or something but i kept holding myself back. Scared that i can't commit and such. His words also makes sense. I'm gnna have a new batch of people im about to meet soon. Maybe there's someone better(?); is what i would think but just recently i keep going crazy over you(?) i know i sound creepy saying this but its the truth. Ahh well, besides the negative stuff i've came up with an interesting name recently - "努不生力" it's meant to be directly translated from noobsonli purely from pronounciation but apparently no one gets it. And just now i have thought of a meaning for those 4 characters. The meaning would be "putting in effort would not make you any better" something along those lines. I find it pretty true in some situations though... Oh well, school is reopening soon! and damned. the best teacher in my CCA left my CCA sad much. I'll just hope i can last through my CCA until my batch step down~