envy. pretty much refer to the feelings i always have.why can they be so sweet? why can't i ?why am i always the one being neglected and taken granted for? it's irritating but i still have to live with it. hahas. been bearing this pain(?) for so long alr... dk how i did i survive till now. perhaps im just good for being used. ahahha again and again and again. i escape, yet i go back for more sadness. dumbduck me who cant do anything. screw myself..