just woke up
ass hurts
ytd too much bike alr :/
ytd is the first time i hang out with friends in 1 or 2 months..
i dont even want to go at first..
but my gut feeling tells me that something will happen if i dont go
something...
i dont know good or bad but something...
so i just went..
next,
reasons i quit fb & twitter
whenever i log in i freakin get my mood spoiled.
just like on wednesday..
i just went in to confirm some things with jw
and i saw sth that irritated me ttm
i keep telling myself that i wun care about you
that i dun want to think abt you
that i dun miss you
but i just cant help it D:
you're freakin in my head 24-7..
and everything seems to remind me of you..
ytd on bike
i was thinking
you should have known..
how freakin happy i am when you told me that..
its beyond words..
but in the end,
i guess its just something to make me feel better?
a false hope?
its like i knew it when you say that but i just believe blindly
then,
later,
you said that im just a very close friend...
but it doesnt look that way to me
if im ur very close friend,
then the other guys is ur best friends?
plus you dun even tell me anything..
thats the way i see it..
maybe its just me thinking too much
but it still hurts ):
i've turned into a freak..
i've become anti-social
i dun even feel like talking nowadays..
thats why i gave my sis phone and quited fb and twitter
HOW I WISH I HAVE THE POWER TO FORGET ANY MEMORIES AND EMOTIONS I WANT.